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Wake Up N Smell The Coffee...

Monday, October 24

sigh... i can't help but wonder, what kind of brotherhood do i and my four brothers have? i've seen how close and intimate my friends are with their siblings, and i'm kind of envious with their sibling ties. they're able to make lambing with their older kuya's or ate's and kid their bunso's.
of course doing lambing and pa-sweetums is out of the picture since we're a bunch of guys. but we don't do a "yo bro!" type of bonding. we're more like schoolmates. haha! not even close to busmates.

but we're not like apathetic people. i can still remember way back (centuries ago) then we used to bond a lot. we do stuffs together like play basketball and other larong garahe (di kami kalye boys e), wrestle on the bed, mess with our toys, battle through computer games, tickle each other to death (ako may malakas na kiliti, so ako biktima). even doing house chores together was bonding time. but now, we hardly talk to each other. silence is the only thing going around when we're together. as in deadma, walang pakielamanan. but not to the point that we're total snobs. i guess this because of our contradicting personalities and different interest. hmm...i'm not sure if we are totally of different personalities... we do have a lot in common, but i don't think it's enough to set spark a yo-bro-wazz-happuning kind of discourse.

we're just not vocal with one another, not much of a conference going on not even a rational and intelligent conversation. we all share the same cold shoulder. there was a point in our adolescent lives that we became cold and too-old-enough-to-talk-with-kids. yes...i remember it started with the eldest, then the next, then unto the next..and so on. it's like we just passed it unto the younger sibling. and when its the younger one's turn, he'll return the favor to the elder as he pass it to the younger. i know i did, it was during my sophomore year in highschool. and now, my younger brother is doing it to me. oh, what a fate...so sad...

sigh...is it too late to turn it upside-down? can we still bring back the days when we used to bond through fun and play? yes...i'm hoping that that day will come. di pa naman talaga huli ang lahat. kahit gaano kami kalamig sa isa't isa nakikita ko pa rin na there's still what i call a spark everytime we're together- watching tv, dinning outside, going to our cousins (it's the actual going to our cousins; the travel i mean), going out for rides (as our eldest drives for us). sa mga pinakamabababaw na gawain, doon pa kami nagbo-bonding. or maybe it's just me? in these kinds of activities i indulge in their company. siguro nga ano...we don't have to be vocal, mushy, sentimental and all...we're brothers, even if we're at odds nothing can come between us. mga pa-simple kumbaga...

it's obvious. the only greatest thing we have in common is our not-so-secret-yet-desperately-hidding brotherly love for each other. hahaha!!! so mushi-mushy...eeeeeeew.hahaha!!!
ok na rin ako sa kung anong meron kami, we have something uniquely farfetched relationship.

one cup at a time

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